Uni and work life

Finishing off alevels and probably moving on to uni soon, probably within this year.. New chapter and all that stuff, woohoo, and from there..... Probably my last chance of my LIFE being able to enjoy my life as a young adult. After uni, work comes after that. Probably gonna be at a desk, werking a 9-5 job, going home have dinner sleep wake up go to work and all that crap...... Why do i put myself through college and uni to do this crap?

Oh right. Cause later got no future haih. Whatever you do, you do for better future prospects, not cause you wanna be happy. 

I mean, who the fuck will be like "oh i'm studying accountancy to be happy / help ppl with their accounts cause it brings me joy" who. The. Fuck??

No. We're doing everything now for our future prospects. It doesn't mean its gonna be a happy one, or even a fulfilling one. And don't even get me started on fulfillment. A job won't make you happy or fulfilled. In the movies, yes. For some people, yes. But what about our future prospects? Yep can hardly have one without the other. This is the real life. 

I mean come on. Don't tell me thousands of people enrolled in a business course are doing it to be happy. Like counting figures for the rest of their lives is gonna be so heart racing and adrenaline pumping.  Like you'd want to do it again and again for the rest of your life cause its so goddamned fulfilling dammit. Like waking up fresh every morning at 8am getting sooooo excited and spilling your coffee on yourself, just to do whatever you did yesterday, or day before yesterday, probably your accounts and whatever is it normal people do at an office (certainly not drinking booze and having fun & games like in the Wolf of Wall Street)

But if you want to be enthusiastic about things...... Perhaps that paycheck could get that bag you wanted for so long. Or a night out having fun. Or a trip to Thailand. Or not. Oh sorry did you forget your rent, electricity bill, phone bill and food........ I'm pretty sure you won't be living with your parents forever, are ya?

OH MY GOD I ALMOST FORGOT ABOUT THIS. What about.......... Your family of your own!!! BABIES!!! KIDS!! EDUCATION!! COLLEGE? YES MORE EDUCATION, UNIVERSITY!!! PAY PAY PAY WOOOOHOOOO SO EXCITING.

Nope, sorry. I'd rather shrink and die.

Honestly, I don't know whats the point of this post. I mean obviously, yeah some people can still get both of fulfillment and ensured future prospects... But idk i feel like its so hard for people like me. I don't know how to have both without sacrificing another. So yea............ I wasn't feeling so broody earlier but now I am. I'm such a party pooper, yay!